Thursday, August 29, 2013

Thankful Thursday-August!

Thankful, to God for so much!
So many blessings all around us.
Thankful for uni-cycling and our last parade of the summer (in August)
It was so much fun going to parades and watching the team! 
Thankful for a captive audience for my bigger kids,
they always have little watchers...

 Thankful I got to see these beautiful Black Eyed Susans at the Minnesota Zoo
They were all around the zoo, surrounded, amazing to see
(I want them in my backyard!)
 Forget the animals, look at these!
 My husband's sister, Heidi, (and her husband), and "Rosie's" friend Trinity,
(who is actually Christine's 2nd cousin) came along with us!
 Thankful to get this sweetie among the wild flowers...
 Thankful to get this sweet boy with the T-Rex!!
He knew every dinosaur at age 2, what they ate and how to pronounce them,
even if we didn't understand him, he knew them!
Thankful for the deer hiding in our woods...see it?
 Awwww, it's a baby, she let me get really close before running away!
 Thankful for all this, um, not sure what to call it
 The kids call it, "restaurant delivery"
That purple is Russian Sage and crushed chalk...
 Thankful for rainbows, we saw 2 this past month! 
 Thankful for ice cream cones...lots of ice cream cones!
 Thankful for our trip to Fargo to visit friends!
My friend Sarah, and I have been friends for like 22 years!!
We've been meeting the past few years at a kind of half way place
since she lives about 3 hours away from us.
 The last time we visited (without a First Holy Communion or Baptism)
Just plain visited was--here when "Colette" was a baby...
We've had a few more kiddos...
And gotten digital cameras!
 Thankful every time we get together, everyone gets along and has a blast!
(our oldest girls, age 12 and 11)
 The time goes so quickly!
(Our girls age 5 and 4)
 Here's the babies we've had since
and of course, we push them in our strollers the exact same way!!
 My closest friend in the whole world, besides Tom!
We just get each other, always, no matter what happens in life.
And I am so very Thankful for the gift of our friendship.
 Thankful for busy little boys on the playground!
 Thankful for roller skating birthday parties!
(Christine's daughter was invited too!)
 Thankful for water playing kiddos
(she must feed her animals corn?)
This did  not end so neat and tidy on the towel, 
in case you were wondering.
That's all I'm saying about that.
(I have a climbing 1 1/2 year old, you know)
Thankful for climbing 1 1/2 year olds having snack on the big kid bench 
and smiling his camera smile!
 Thankful we were able to spend time at the pool this summer...it's closed now.
 Thankful my girls were able to spend time with their friends,
(notice the audience in the background?--cute huh?)
 These girls have been friends since they were 3, 
and they are moving away to the Twin Cities this Fall...
We will miss them so very much.
So Thankful for their friendships
 Thankful for beach time...

 Thankful for August watermelon birthdays!
Thankful for wonderful, sweet, funny 4 year olds.
 Thankful for semi matching girls, and Thankful 
for $3 dresses at Wal-Mart!
 Thankful for green matching boys!
(see them together in my header picture!)
 Thankful for fresh zucchini from Christine
we baked, I mean I baked 4 loaves of zucchini bread and 
this cake, the best ever cake!!  
It is SO moist!
Recipe HERE
 Thankful for busy littles starting preschool this year
(Tuesday)
(I am her teacher!)
Want a great program?
Go HERE
She has Catholic ABC's and projects to go with that 
She even has a script to follow if you need help with that!
 Thankful for busy toddlers...
 Thankful for school books for me to go over 
(before Tuesday)
Thankful I got  my school room, the cupboards and drawers and desk cleaned out
and organized for the new school year.
 Thankful, so very thankful for this man.
The love of my life.
The life of my love.
The best husband for me and the best father for these kids.
Thankful for made up recipes!

Black Bean Veggie Salad
2 cans of black beans, drained and rinsed
1 can of green beans
cherry tomatoes, sliced in half (a bunch)
a cucumber diced
1 can corn (I used white corn here), drained
Avocado, sliced, chopped into bite size pieces
Sliced Black Olives, leftover from Taco night...
Salt and pepper to taste
Dressing of your choice,
I used a tomato vinaigrette

YUMMY!

God bless your Holiday weekend!

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

On Having Babies

I must start this post, 
Just to clarify, so no one gets too excited here,
I am not pregnant.
(at this time)

 This is an issue I've been wanting to write about for quite some time.
Tom and I are, and always have been,
open to life.

 What that really means
is we are open to accepting Gods gift of life
We use no artificial means to prevent God's will.
 NFP, or Natural Family Planning, is used
to somewhat prevent in times of struggle, or recovery from C-sections,
of course, from  years of experience, 
I know my body very well.
I know when I'm ovulating, 
I know the baby days

 And I know the non-baby days.
That's really what NFP is, 
getting to know your body
the way God made it.
Like God made the woman's body to want to
make babies during the baby days.
(NFP is also used to achieve pregnancy-in knowing those baby days)
 When we were first married, we struggled with infertility.
For the first 3 years, we were childless.
(except for my daycare children)
(We also had a failed adoption attempt)

 I, still, to this day have no idea why that happened, 
except for us to be able to empathize with other childless couples
to some extent. 
Maybe it was not for us, 
maybe it was for others, for the priest who blessed our womb, 
for the couple that had their womb blessed after hearing about us.
Or the couples that heard about the womb blessing and conceived after that.
 Gods will is a mystery most often
and maybe it should stay that way, we do not need to know the "why's"
Being open to Gods will 
takes complete trust.

Complete trust.

That's not easy to do in today's world.

I mean who are we to say
 "no way God, we do not want children, we do not 
want the gifts You have for us, we know better for our lives."?

Complete trust means not worrying about what we want, 
or what we think is best for us.
 (working the pro life booth at the county fair this summer)

I am at an age now,
(almost 44)
where I've had 6 beautiful children,
plus one in heaven.
We are constantly in progress
with our faith, our marriage and our family


 
I'm torn right now.
There's a sadness in the possibility of Simeon being our last baby.
a sadness of the loss of future babies not conceived.
Because we already love that baby.
We love God's will for our lives.
I love children and love each new personality God gives us.
I have those baby feelings, or baby wantings, or baby fever.

God puts those feelings there for a reason.
I know it is a gift. 

Every time I count my kids, when going places or whatever
I think, "Someone is missing..."
6 doesn't seem that many

Like, is this it?
 

 On Sunday, during Mass, Simeon
crawled up on the pew and was standing to get something out of  the 
church bag, when I caught out of the corner of my eye, 
the woman behind us, probably in her 50's,
(I'm guessing her kids are grown now,
and she is in between her own kids and grandchildren),
reach
and ever so slyly,
 rub Simeon's soft arm.

It was such a touching moment.  
My baby was a gift to her, even for just a moment.

A gift from God to me, 
and a gift from God to others.



My babies are a gift to us, always.  
As in I cannot even fathom to imagine life without any one of them.

I am torn, because, although, I have that baby fever,
I am also getting older.  (like how I added the "er")

I catch myself thinking about life without babies.
No more high chair taking up so much room in the kitchen,
No more baby toys and baby car thingy's all over the living room.
No more changing table.

And it's expensive, having kids, 
not necessarily babies, but kids?
We spend a small fortune on yogurt alone.
Money is tight. 
God always provides, He really does,
there might not be extra, but there is enough.


 And then there is my body
After 6 C-sections, that tummy...and
If we have another baby, 
there goes 2 years of my life
2 more years of giving my body
(I'm realistic here, folks, my body goes to pot)
Carrying a baby, nursing a baby, 
hard things, yes.

Really, what's 2 more years?
The years go so quickly (once they are gone)

And it is ever so rewarding and filled with blessings at the same time.

And where is the trust?
Complete Trust.

 Psalm 12- Lo, children [are] an heritage of the LORD: [and] the fruit of the womb [is his] reward.


 So I am in the middle, 
not knowing if we will ever conceive again, 
and the fears that go along with that.
And
kind of looking forward to the next stage of aging.

 I think that is being open.
Open to whatever God wants of us.

So if God wishes to give us another precious little soul
to love, we would be ever so Thankful.
And if that is not God's plan for us, 
then, well, 
we are ever so Thankful for that too.

 Genesis 1:28 - And God blessed them, and God said unto them, Be fruitful, and multiply, and replenish the earth, and subdue it: and have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over every living thing that moveth upon the earth.